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I was 22 when I had my abortion.
The images that fill my head of that day remain
Tools laid out on a metal tray
My friend’s hair draped over the back of a chair
And I remember hoping that the physical pain of what was to come
Would serve as an extension of the raw heaviness that infiltrated my chest.
I wanted to feel it all;
To feel the gravity of the choice I was fortunate enough to have.
Four women filled the room.
My friend and her soothing voice.
The nurse and her firm stance.
The doctor and her careful hands.
I want to tell you that I still have tears for that day.
They hold the acknowledgment of this:
There was only a brief moment in which my body was emptied of one possibility.
But as I was drained of that,
I was just as quickly filled with the tenderness of three incredible women.
And oh god, I absorbed their care with everything I had,
And I realized that there is
Compassion in what others call cruel.
There is courage in what others call cowardice.
There is life in what others call murder.
Those three women saved my life.
Their tenderness continues to fill me.
And this is worth protecting.
Women are worth protecting.
There will always be more of us.
And with that, we will have more care.
Author statement: My name is Laurelin. I’ve used poetry as a creative form of expression for as long as I can remember. For a long time, I didn’t even want to speak about my abortion, maybe out of shame or fear that I would be judged. But I think that no matter where a person is with their abortion, there are people out there who understand and support them.