My Father’s Daughter – The Feminist Wire

My Father’s Daughter

When I was a child, I lost one father and gained another. Damaged and blessed simultaneously, as many of us are, my girlhood was shaped by both a profound absence and a solid presence. This liminal position, which to some degree I still inhabit, hinged between longing and hope, loss and normality, the past and the future, girlhood and womanhood.

My father—the biological one—did not leave us; quite the contrary. He lost access to my sister and me after taking us away from our mother for several weeks one hot, sticky summer. We lived in the car, crisscrossing Illinois in a state of confusion and fear. Now we understand this as parental kidnapping or abduction; in the 1970s, it was just fucked up.

When we were eventually returned to our frantic mother, one of my clearest memories is of my stepfather, Denny, who was not yet my stepfather. In my version of events, from the moment I stepped out of the police car that brought my sister and me home to Chicago, Denny was there, waiting for us. My parents tell me this is not so, that we didn’t see Denny until much later. But for me, a frightened child, he was there.

After my mom and Denny married, we moved from the city to a small town in Wisconsin. This put us in close proximity to our stepbrothers, who lived most of the time with their mother in a neighboring town in the same school district. It also allowed us to “hide” from my father; we basically went underground for many years—not too difficult an accomplishment in the pre-Internet, pre-cell phone era. We never saw our biological father, and any correspondence went through our maternal grandfather in Chicago.

My adolescent years thus involved an intense, private emotional life alongside my public persona as a fairly ordinary, if slightly odd, girl; a cheerleader with a secret, if you will. Throughout these challenging years—and for the next three decades—my stepfather was there. Denny taught me how to drive, literally and metaphorically. And he has been there—present and supportive and funny and kind—for every important moment of my life: high school heartaches, college graduation, marriages, divorces, the birth of my children, job changes, cross-country relocations, professional successes and failures, smart moves, stupid decisions.

I adore my mother, but it is often Denny to whom I turn when I experience tiny heartaches, emotional tsunamis, life’s crossroads. He centers me, still, just as much as he did when I was nine. Now retired, Denny was a semi-truck mechanic his whole life, and at one point was spokesman for his union. He’s a classic blue-collar guy with a deep sense of responsibility, a man who always puts family first. He wants “suits” and politicians to help the working man (and woman), and he’s frequently disappointed when they don’t. He’s not much of a reader, but he is a genuine people person. He likes to cook and garden, he loves the drag races, and he has a great sense of humor (his Howdy Doody impression is hysterical).

Dennis Struck, Christmas 2011, Tucson

Of course, we don’t always agree, but we rarely argue; both Virgos, neither of us morning people, we’re a lot alike. Recently, in preparation for this article, I asked Denny about parenting, daughters, and feminism.

Monica: How was raising daughters different than having sons?

Denny: Daughters are harder to raise because they’re, um…how can I put this nicely? They’re more difficult at times. Boys, after a certain age, boys take care of their own stuff and just solve it. Daughters, their problems are greater. The way they solve them is just different. You have to be more sympathetic to their needs than you do boys.

What was the hardest thing about raising us?

I don’t really think there were difficult problems when I raised you, outside of the spats, the internal battling between you and your sister. I raised you to be independent. I always tried to tell you to do what you needed to do for yourself, to take care of yourself.

What was the best thing about raising us?

It was fun and exciting.  Watching you evolve into adults was fun.

Is it still fun?

(Laughs) Sometimes.

What’s it like having a feminist daughter?

It’s different. I agree with a lot of your points and thoughts. I don’t always agree with all of it, but it’s a hard subject to broach. And it takes a strong person to attack that subject, feminism. Because it’s a volatile thing at times. You do a good job at what you do.

What do you think your role was in helping me to become a feminist?

What was my role?  I think it was letting you do what you wanted to do; letting you be the person you wanted to be. And not stomping on your dreams. That’s probably the biggest thing.

Are there any major challenges to having a feminist daughter?

I would say, no, but I sometimes think that you’re more to the left than I thought I’d ever be or that you’d be. But I understand the point of being there. It’s something you have to do to accomplish what you want to do.

How has the world changed for girls, either for the better or worse?

I think the world has changed for the better, although it’s not changed as much as it should be in terms of equal pay and those sorts of things.

If you could give one message to me or your granddaughters, what would you say?

Be true to what you want to do, be true to what you do, and don’t let anybody stand in your way.











  1. Maria Spolsky

    June 17, 2012 at 10:04 am

    Great article Monica! Thanks for tagging me so I wouldn’t miss it.

  2. Maria Spolsky

    June 17, 2012 at 10:04 am

    Great article Monica! Thanks for tagging me so I wouldn’t miss it.

  3. Shari Collins

    June 18, 2012 at 7:55 am

    This was really beautiful, Monica. I love the honor you give to families of reality, not just of biological origin. I’d like to thank Denny for his role in who you are as well. You made a profound difference in my life at a time when it was really bleak. You make a difference. And I will keep Denny’s words, to not stomp on someone’s dreams, firmly in mind as I have been currently blessed with a partner’s 10 year old son in my life. Loving from a step position takes a certain kind of courage and humility that’s rarely honored. You honored Denny.

    • Monica J. Casper

      June 18, 2012 at 6:46 pm

      Thank you, Shari, for this beautiful response. It means a lot to me that I was there for you, and that you took something special away from this piece. xoxo

  4. Monica J. Casper

    June 18, 2012 at 6:46 pm

    Thank you, Shari, for this beautiful response. It means a lot to me that I was there for you, and that you took something special away from this piece. xoxo

  5. Helen

    June 18, 2012 at 11:59 pm

    What a wonderful man!
    There’s a lot of debate (well, that’s a nice word for it) in Australia with MRAs claiming that measures to keep families safe from male domestic abuse or violence denies children the opportunity to know a father. Your experience says that sometimes children can experience a *better* father. And your ability to communicate with each other is enviable. Happy Father’s day to him.

  6. Julie

    June 22, 2012 at 4:37 pm

    What a nice tribute to Denny! I’ve heard you speak about him for years, knowing he was special, but had no idea how instrumental he has been in your life. As I am now a stepparent of sorts myself, this story of yours helps me to realize just how much power I can have in this child’s life and what a valuable contribution I can make in this often socially unacknowledged role. Cheers to Denny!

  7. Monica J. Casper

    July 2, 2012 at 3:55 pm

    Thanks Julie! It’s been said that step-parenting is one of the hardest and most thankless tasks there is; lots of responsibility, no real power, and all that societal confusion about blood, love, and history. Yes, cheers to Denny, but also to you. xoxo

  8. Monica J. Casper

    July 2, 2012 at 3:56 pm

    Thanks for these kind words, Helen!